Guess I better say ‘hi’ right …so yeah been having a bloggers block lately so decided today I’m going to use this space to vent some feelings as I’m never usually good with talking about this kind of stuff anyway. I feel completely stuck in a rut! My job is driving me insane…I honestly don’t want to keep arguing with my director but she seems to have some crazy vendetta against me! It’s tiring me out…I think my managing director only keeps me on because I work super hard all the time…i usually don’t even have a dinner break! …or any other kind of break for that matter! I’m still waiting for my second letter from the police….they did say it could be weeks though so I'm not that worried…I just get impatient that's all.
I know this sounds like a super giant rant but its not :( I just feel so stifled and held back it’s unreal…I keep asking myself how did I let myself get here…and the answer is i let my worries and fears get the best of me :( …I had lots of chances to do better…had a place at Swansea university…but didn’t go…Cambridge university had been monitoring me….but I messed that one up too. But I think this year I’m going to try and turn it all around…well I hope so anyway.
Oh and lastly some of the people I talk to online are the sweetest friends I know, I never really thought I could make such good friends through an internet connection. Some of you I could even imagine being my best friends eventually haha….I hope that doesn’t sound too strange…I was being sincere :) My friends in the real world could really take a lesson from you lot…I’m sick of being that person that everyone relies on all of the time, I never ask for anything in return from my real world buddies but most of the time I never even get a simple ‘thanks’. They all know I would do anything for them…but would they do the same for me? I’m beginning to think not.
Anyway yeah I'll finish this on a more positive note…’thanks’ to my online buddies :) who fill my evenings with laughter and new addictions hahahaha :) You guys mean a lot to me :)
Thanks!
ReplyDeleteand YOUR director should get a real spanking (Very into the word spanking today)
and your friends should really think about how much they might depend on you!
Thanks!
Yeah internet is the best! and i always like to share my obessions with other people :P
ReplyDeleteAnd you are a good friend!